Ashes to Ashes

Ashes to Ashes

The sun shines down upon another day

There’s always so much more to do

But I have lost the need – I have no dreams

That I would have come true. 

I’m tired of waiting for someone to save me

I drove away the people that tried

The pressure’s on, but the desire’s gone

And my tomorrow has died. 

And so I say goodbye

To everything I’ve known

Ashes to ashes

The seeds that I have sown.

Ashes to ashes

There’s no-one I can blame

Ashes to ashes. 

Who wants to hear another sad song?

Who wants to hear of another’s despair?

I’m too terrified to reach out, ‘cause I might find

No-body there. 

The sun shines down upon another day

There’s always so much left undone

But I can’t see the light

This endless night has finally

Begun. 

And so I say goodbye

To everything I’ve known

Ashes to ashes

The seeds that I have sown

Ashes to ashes

There’s no-one I can blame

Ashes to ashes 

The sun shines down upon

Another empty day

Ashes to ashes

The seeds have blown away.

Ashes to ashes

Have mercy on me.

Calling

Calling. 

I am not the sum total of my existence

That means nothing

I am not freed by my innocence

That means nothing

When it’s quiet at night and the moon is bright

I have time to think and I think I might be falling

Am I dead and cold, am I frail and old

Was I born a fool or big and bold

I’m calling

Who am I?

I am humble and proud

Just a face in the crowd

And I’m looking for something

To fill up the nothing

Who am I?

Just one life in a swarm

Trying to weather the storm

And if life has no meaning

Then why am I dreaming? 

I am not validated by my religion

That means nothing

I am not vindicated by the company I keep

That means nothing.

When it’s quiet at night and the moon is bright

I have time to think and I think I might be falling

They say it’s a choice of heaven or hell

Well whoever you are and wherever you dwell

I’m calling

Who am I?

All my passion and lust

Cannot keep me from dust

And if truth is believing

Then why am I grieving?

Who am I?

Just one life in a swarm

Trying to weather the storm

And if life has no meaning

Then why am I dreaming?

Who am i?

Who am I?

‘Cause I feel like I’m falling

But still I am calling…

Discover

Discover.

Sometimes we feel like the world doesn’t care

And sometimes we feel the pain of a heart that’s laid bare

This world and its cruelty

Has nothing for you and me

But lessons on how to be as hard as steel

Everyday. 

We can discover

The love that lies there

Waiting for something to show us the care

We can discover

What all children know

The journey will diminish us

But we don’t have to go 

Why do we give away the best we can be?

Our innocent wisdom; our joy to be free

It’s all to our detriment

The world sets its precedent

And then we become what we never dreamed

We would be.

We can discover

The truth we once knew

Waiting for something to show us it’s true

We can discover

And see through the lies

‘Cause once the truth leaves us

The child in us dies.  

To the children…

Show us the way.

Show us the way.

Waiting for the anger...

Waiting For The Anger 

I’m waiting at the crossroads

Trying to find which way to go

I believe that there are answers

For me to know

I’m swaying as the storm blows

The winds of fortune pass me by

Just because you left me bleeding

I will not die. 

Please believe I’m going nowhere

I believe I’m doing fine

I’m just waiting for a place

To trace this moment as mine

Please believe me

You know I’d hate to waste your time. 

I know you had your reasons

I know that I believed your lies

I can see the light of triumph

In your eyes

But fifteen years don’t count for nothing

Fifteen years have passed me by

And though I bear the scars with dignity

It’s a lie. 

Please believe I’m going nowhere

I believe I’m doing fine

I’m just waiting for a place

To trace this moment as mine

Please believe me

You know I’d hate to waste your time. 

I remember all those endless nights

Of planning, scheming, dreaming of a life of our own

I remember every word and every deed

Now everything that I had is gone

Yes it’s gone

So what am I to do? 

All those years I spent believing

I’m feeling all the pain

And I’m waiting for the anger… 

Please believe I’m going nowhere

I believe I’m doing fine

I’m just waiting for a chance

To dance with fortune just one more time

Please believe me

Please believe me

Please believe me

You know I’d hate to waste your time.

The way you wasted mine.

Whisky

Whisky 

Meanwhile, I had a glass of whisky

And talked about the events of the day

Nothing really was said and nothing passed between us

But I could go on forever that way

She watched the TV, I read the paper

I watched her watching the years slipping by

I grunted carefully, afraid to upset her

It’s my own way of keeping something alive.

and later in the silence of my lonely room

I thought about leaving; well I often do

And while I thought about where the hell would I go,

I had a glass of whisky

Or two.

Wolves

Wolves

If I had the words, I would tell you
What you mean to me
If I had the strength I’d let you in
Then you would truly see
But I am not a clever man
And do you know the feelings I hold inside?
I am just a simple man
And all I ask when clouds are dark and grey
Will love keep the wolves at bay?

If I had the time to make it better
I’d make it best for you
If I had a chance to change my future
I know just what I’d do
I am not a special man
and do you know the reasons for my desire?
I am just a simple man
And all I ask when sorry times hold sway
Will love keep the wolves at bay.

If I had the words, I would tell you
What you mean to me

The Gardener.

The Gardener. 

There was a tree

A beautiful tree in my garden.

I cut it down.

In the empty space

It used to stand

I made a garden.

I planted flowers

Beautiful flowers

In rows.

I replaced beauty with beauty –

And what did I achieve?

Power.